Can you believe this is the last Wednesday of 2015? This year has just flown by. This means it’s also the last Whiny Wednesday of the year.
I’m going to open the floor for all whines today, but wanted to add one extra consideration. If you were visiting this site at this time last year, what’s changed for you? Are there things you would have whined about then that don’t affect you in the same way now? Can you see improvements in your outlook on life? Are there things you’re less tolerant of now than you were last year?
Enjoy your whining and I’ll look forward to seeing you here next year.
Happy New Year!
This time last year,I was still pregnant,not knowing I would suffer a miscarriage just days later.So when I got my AF just before Christmas,I was a bit devastated (like I always am when that bitch comes),but honestly,I’m just happy to be able to have a very boozy,fun New Year’s Eve for the 1st time in 3 years.Gotta try and see the silver lining somewhere…
I am very lucky to have a nearly 2 year old step-granddaughter, who is absolutely adorable – and now lives close to us. She makes me realise that I would have loved to have been a mum, if life had been different for me. However, I would have needed to be young and healthy to cope with a toddler full-time! I am nearly 45 now and have chronic pain/fatigue due to Fibromyalgia and Hypermobility Syndrome. A few hours with her in the house and I need 24 hours of rest! I am also glad that I have so much going on in my life – with my Tarot Reading business, my animals, crafting, tv addiction, F1 and much more. There is definitely more to life than being a mum. Happy New Year to everyone.
I am struggling to get up the nerve to go out for New Year’s. A very good friend just had a healthy baby girl this morning and we had planned to have a gathering at their place (her due date wasn’t until next week). I have secretly been dreading this moment as it is always equally joyful and painful for me when my friends have kids. I am thrilled for them but had a total meltdown this afternoon anyhow. I assumed their event would be cancelled but her mother is insisting that we still come and I am afraid of breaking down in front of everyone. Drinking a glass of wine and eating some truffles, trying not to feel like a jealous bitch and working up the courage to go and welcome their little one properly. Why must this always be so hard? Wishing you all happy New Years and hoping to find acceptance and balance in 2016.
Of course you feel jealous and your feelings are valid and its fine to feel whatever it is and that’s ok. Its normal and natural to feel jealous and no you are not a bitch as it hurts to see others experiencing what you sadly lost out on.